Friday, February 11, 2011

Anthony Green - Slowing Down





I'm eccentric ,go ahead and condemn me down .IDGAF.You see this guy here ,I'm madly crushing on him .Incase you guys didn't know He's the former vocalist for soasin .SNAP.This guy right here is epic , wayyyyy to epic for anyone to get near .



Slowing Down performed by Anthony Green
Video of Live Performance - Buzznet

Things start slowing down, for you and I.
It's been a long time coming.
If you keep holding on to what we've lost,
You're gonna drag down the road behind us.

I never wanted it to feel like this, to be this way,
I'm just afraid that if you stay we'll never change.
I never wanted it to be like this, to feel this way,
I'm just afraid that if you stay you'll hate me.

Things start slowing down, for you and I.
It's been a long long long long time
If you keep holding on to what we've lost,
You're gonna drag down the road forever.

I never wanted it to be like this, to feel this way,
I'm just afraid that if you stay we'll never change.
I never wanted it to be like this, to feel this way,
I'm just afraid that if you stay you'll fucking kill me


                                                             CHAPTER 2

: I woke up around 10.30 am.WHAT it's HOLIDAY okayy.What do you expect !.lols.I'm planning to study but seriously I think that idea is failing man.My mind is always wandering around ,Fill me with determination and enthusiasm please , lack of em.Maybe I've been going back too much lately ,I need to give myself a break.


Seriously it's been 3 days in a row of outing.Don't get me wrong It's not like I have so much to buy or shop.I couldn't bare sitting helplessly in the room and doing nothing.Study is like the last thing I would do right now.My mind is running wild.I'm demanding for something impposible.I had issues with my bestfriend lately , "Her name is the only thing I know " kind of feeling.Like we we're drifted apart .


  I WONDER  IF I HAD A  BOYFRIEND  ,WOULD I  NEGLECTED MY FRIENDS , LIKE THE WAY YOU DID TO US.?

I give you an inch and you take a mile.We make mistakes that erase when you smile
Im starting to feel like it aint alright
How can you care if we're dont cross your mind?
Cause I,
Say I wanna talk but it might not be the brightest idea ever
And evertime you in his arms , you seems to be half the person that I used to know.
Don't get me wrong , I'm not mad .I've no right to.

I had so much to say but you're my bestfriend.

And here it goes.I'm mixed up and I'm sorry.Not sure though whtr it's the right thing to say . Let's put ths thing straight ,runaway from lies please.Tell me anything but lies ,it's not going to be smooth but I'll try to be a man about it.errk.I had so much to say -but it might kill you , me and us.So I kept it all inside- I'm sorry I couldn't .I'd face calamity , but I just couldn't afford losing you amigo .

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Teluk Likas Kota Kinabalu Beach .






The secrets of every laugh .

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Let's start this fragile story of mine
.People used to ask me ths question , and it gets me everytime.
"Adeline , do you EVER cry ?" he asked .I gazed .I'm puzzled .I'm not quite sure whtr I should cry or laugh out loud bout it .Then I'd say "What make you say tht?" thn he replied "You look so tough , you can HARDLY CRY".And I replied him with a smug on my face.The thing is ,I may appear unbreakable and untouchable ,but I'm not .Perhaps I acted , rough , tough ,manly and stuff.Dude I'm not heartless.I showed you my pokerface , because there's just too many story that I can't explain.And most of all I didn't want any sympathy.Yes , I've been laughing like hell , but do you knw that beyond tht bitchy laugh was a helpless,hanging by a thread kind of girl.Laughing out loud was one of my fences to hide everything .Sounds pathetic isn't it ?.I thought I can give myself a break or slighty happiness for a while,but I was wrong.Everything went completely dull everytime I'm alone.Time never really heal and medicine never really works ,sleeps never really been a wonderland for me.It's like a sprained except it lasts forever.Do you get it ?.You see women is a riddle and that's how we rolled.I expected you to solve me ,but till now I'm still a locked door and inside I'm a mess by someone before.Relationship never get deep to me .I pushed people away , NOT BECAUSE I'M A HIGH MAINTENANCE KIND OF BITCH .SERIOUSLY I DON'T GIVE A FCUK ABOUT IT .I'm just way to scare to start off something new or I'm just too fatigue to make any.Frankly , I don't even knw what is wrong with me.I'm so over my ex .I don't know this choas I was getting in.Clearly I've got issues and I'm trying to deal with it .pfff~.But when I sang , I'm showing off my true colour.Vampires could not get rid of memories ,but human get better in time , because they tend to forget the past.I'm a vampire .


                                               

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

:) I'm loving every bit of ths song .

I told you that im leaving (deuces)
I know you mad but so what?
I wish you best of luck
And now im finna throw them deuces up
Im on some new shit
Im chuckin my deuces up to em
Im moving on to something better, better, better
No more tryin to make it work
You made me wanna say bye bye, say bye bye, say bye bye to em :)



Tuesday, December 7, 2010

WHAT IF-






 reminiscence with wide blue ocean .

Screw me .

We went to 1b today . Settling all the stuffs.I wish I can tell you more :) .Back to the track .I'm no complaining , but I let my conscience do the talk .I mean , should I or shouldn't I ? I've just realise tht -I'm NOT DATING anyone .I NEVER dated anyone since my last goodbye back in 2007.-officially- for almost 4 years ALREADY.wootwoot !.Hell yeah , Relationship never get deep to me.Hold up ,I'm soooooo OVER em .I never bash em .I'm no hating and I do wish em well.He moved on and I moved on.Eversince, I take control of myself I put all my feelings & weakness aside.I managed to live my life like a robot .For all ths time,I hve no issues on it.I'm fying like a bird,if you knw what I'm saying.I tasted FREEDOM, and I loike it.I'm not going to lie ,I often asked myself- What if I never met my soulmate ? What If I'm not interested in anyone AGAIN ? What if don't need another half to make me whole ? What If I really posses myself ? All the Ifs,buts or maybes keep filling my head.I noticed , I let my guard fence me all the time,and not letting anyone in .I saw wht my friends hv been through and I don't wanna be the next "LUCKY" star to fall and lost its shines.Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind.Left me nothing , complete nothing to say .Everything happens for a reason , and I forced myself to believe it
Thts simply my little thoughts , so WHAT IF- :)